Growing up is scary.
I don’t like growing up. I didn’t really think I’d ever particularly like growing up and I was right on the money. Having now moved into my own place in New York (for the second time), I am reminded of just how overwhelming being an adult who lives on their own is. But you know what? The process has shown me something else as well, that I’m a lot stronger than I think I am. The road to living in the apartment I do now with the incomparable Alex Garretson was a long and winding one, but each time we were met with an obstacle we’d band together and overcome it.
Knowing I couldn’t rely on anyone else to solve my problems for me caused a kind of awakening in me. No, it wasn’t the force awakening, it was a kind of courage awakening. A realization of how little running away from your problems really solves. This would be the perfect place for me to reference Neon Genesis Evangelion, seeing as how that was one of the more prevalent themes on that show but I think I’ll forgo the NGE reference for this Tuesday Thought. Although I guess that was technically a reference so…consider that quota filled.
Anyway, we are getting off topic here, the point is, this Tuesday Thought is a little more for me than anyone else. Its so easy for me to forget that I can like…do things and accomplish things on my own without anyone telling me what to do or when to do it. Maybe I’m not the only one who forgets exactly what they are capable of, in fact I’d say that’s a pretty safe bet. So if you’re reading this, let this be a reminder to you too.
There’s a kind of fire inside us all that is just waiting to burn, we just gotta let the fire spread. Maybe thats not a great metaphor, letting fires spread is typically not a very good thing. Clearly metaphor-writing isn’t my hidden strength, but thats alright because I’ve surrounded myself with some of the funniest, coolest, bravest, hardest working people this world has to offer. They may not be able to solve all my problems for me and frankly I wouldn’t want them to, but they are sure damn good at stoking those flames in me. So, you know what? I take it back, this Tuesday Thought isn’t for me, its for them. For all you guys in CPT working your butts off and making amazing things happen and putting up with my nonsense; and for all my non-CPT friends that are just and fantastic, thank you all for being there even if you didn’t even know you were being there.
I love you guys.